Thursday, May 22, 2008
Kickstart Hegemon...
Now that I’ve the tools I always find something that is missing and I’m using it as an excuse to not start. After investing almost 3K on this I cannot believe I’d allow so many months pass by without doing something about it.
Maybe taking a challenge that would require the tools I need would kickstart me again, instead of not accepting work because I think that “maybe” something would be amiss.
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
Poverty...
The other day I readed an article on a local newspaper. There’s a lot of panamenians living on less than two dollars a day.
Guess I’ll start to be more open to help homeless people when they ask for help.
1.46!! Wonder if I can last long enough living on that daily budget, I spent ten times that daily between transport, snacks and food.
Knowing how weak and the headaches I feel if I skip meals one day, no wonder the only energy left to them is to pursuit food by beggin or get drunk for the narcotic and caloric effect, besides is actually cheaper than bread right now, nobody can think of work in such a weakened state, I remember when I was studying at the university and had to use my short money to buy stuff had to decide between eating or buying supplies, those were hard times…
I’ll try to live for a week under that budget, whatever I save, I’ll use to buy supplies for a local charity.
Status update...
When everything seems to go as planned the auto-sabotage starts…I’m trying to keep myself positive and out of the blue, as cliche as it sounds, wish I could break whatever chains are keeping me on hold.
Saturday, May 17, 2008
Week 1 almost done...
It’s been hard. I stopped a couple of months ago most of my addictions intending to see if I’d lost anything to them, when I started the morning pages, it was painful, very emotionally intense, the things that would thwarted those negative emotions from my system weren’t there, and they down on me with the full strenght of a truck, so much that I felt tempted to go back to them.
But I understood the purpouse of the whole exercise, was not to focus on the evil but to be aware that those things were there…
I’m looking forward my next week!!
Found a nice exerpt about this topic...
“How is one to live a moral and compassionate existence when one is fully aware of the blood, the horror inherent in life, when one finds darkness not only in one’s culture but within oneself? If there is a stage at which an individual life becomes truly adult, it must be when one grasps the irony in its unfolding and accepts responsibility for a life lived in the midst of such paradox. One must live in the middle of contradiction, because if all contradiction were eliminated at once life would collapse. There are simply no answers to some of the great pressing questions. You continue to live them out, making your life a worthy expression of leaning into the light.”
By Barry Lopez.
Some personal thoughts:
I Face that every day, as the quote says, how to be compassionate, when it seems the whole world conspires to make you be otherwise.
My advice:
Live out. Don’t try to answer the question. Live on. If you find yourself failing, be bold, lean on the light, put distance between you and whatever tries to pull you back into the never-ending cycle of wrongdoing others…Live with a compassionate heart, surround yourself by likewise people!
Monday, May 12, 2008
I think it would be simpler if working with one piece...
First Set:
The Master & Margarita in Russian, Italian and French.
Things I'm doing wrong...
Still feeling guilty about all that wasted water when I forgot to close the laundry’s faucet and flooded my flat.
Still can’t find LED based bulbs in my city.
Working with 4 monitors.
My water and electricity consumption doubled in april and I cannot find a reason, from USD 9 for water and USD 18 for Power to USD 25 and USD 50.
Sunday, May 11, 2008
Week 1
Week 1 starts today!! Looking forward the next 12 weeks.
Monday, May 05, 2008
Grateful to be able to feel ungrateful
I’d been dreaming with water all the weekend, everywhere within my dreams, running water, clear pristine water, oceans of water. My favourite environment seemed to be the motiff on whatever my mind has been trying to tell me all weekend. So I wake up this morning with a positive outlook to the small drizzle of rain, after all, I love rainy season.
Then I turned on the TV and the first glimpes of the Burma tragedy kicked in, there was the beautiful water that flowed so benign within my dream world wracking havoc half the world across.
I’m Grateful for my country being spared of such natural disasters.
I’m Grateful for water that gives life, and that may take it.
I’m Grateful for the wrath I felt, the rage against a absent landlord sometimes I wish would be looking our way more often.
I’m Grateful to be ungrateful.
I’m Grateful for water in the form of tears.
Sunday, May 04, 2008
My 43 random things
1.I go to sleep at 3:00am and wake up at 6:00am but won’t leave bed until 7:00am.
2.I love to be underwater.
3.Guiness is my favourite brand of beer.
4.I’d been heartbroken twice.
5.I’d been in love twice.
6.I love watching people being people.
7.My favourite place to read is not a cafe, is a bar.
8.My first dog was a German Shepherd called Barky
9.My second dog was a Pekinnesse called Benji.
10.When Benji died was the first time I saw mom crying, I was a kid, I had never seen her crying before.
11.The second time I saw my mom crying was when I asked who my father was. I never asked the question again.
12.I lost my faith in God the same night I got my first broken heart, unrelated reasons. I was 25.
13.I’d rather be alone. I’m sort of an empathic person, crowds can overwhelm me.
14. I love walking in the rain.
15. I have an espresso and a chocolate bar for breakfast.
16. I love pasta.
17. When I watch people I try to predict what they’ll do and what they’ll say, it’s a game I’d played since I was a kid.
18. Sometimes life feels scripted.
19. I feel home among trees.
20. I enjoy painting.
21. In average my desk stays uncluttered half and hour before I turn it into a mess.
22. Poetry.
23. I like old jazz.
24. I’ve a thing for mature women.
25. I like to cook for myself and improvise after 2:00am.
26. I read a lot.
27. I don’t like to use underwear.
28. I’m the guardian of a welsh corgi pembroke and a mut.
29. I Spent a lot of time just listening.
30. Someone up there must love me a lot.
31. I love the sea.
32. I almost got drown trying to save a man from drowning.
33. I often dream of being weightless in my own room.
34. I’m addicted to sex, reading and fried plantains.
35. I practiced my first surgery on myself when I was a kid reading a Dad’s notebook on the subject.
36. I love Cavafy’s poetry
37. It takes time for me to react emotionally, sometimes I do many years after the actual event.
38. One way I deal with my agoraphobia is to imagen people to be cattle, but then I felt it to be very offensive to cattle, now I just imagen people not to be there at all.
39. Rainy days, cloud skies. Love them.
40. I dislike sunny days.
41. I want to figure out the reason Buddha smiles. I bet it’s an inside joke.
42. I enjoy watching people being people.
43. I avoid negative people.
My 43 random things...
1.I go to sleep at 3:00am and wake up at 6:00am but won’t leave bed until 7:00am.
2.I love to be underwater.
3.Guiness is my favourite brand of beer.
4.I’d been heartbroken twice.
5.I’d been in love twice.
6.I love watching people being people.
7.My favourite place to read is not a cafe, is a bar.
8.My first dog was a German Shepherd called Barky
9.My second dog was a Pekinnesse called Benji.
10.When Benji died was the first time I saw mom crying, I was a kid, I had never seen her crying before.
11.The second time I saw my mom crying was when I asked who my father was. I never asked the question again.
12.I lost my faith in God the same night I got my first broken heart, unrelated reasons. I was 25.
13.I’d rather be alone. I’m sort of an empathic person, crowds can overwhelm me.
14. I love walking in the rain.
15. I have an espresso and a chocolate bar for breakfast.
16. I love pasta.
17. When I watch people I try to predict what they’ll do and what they’ll say, it’s a game I’d played since I was a kid.
18. Sometimes life feels scripted.
19. I feel home among trees.
20. I enjoy painting.
21. In average my desk stays uncluttered half and hour before I turn it into a mess.
22. Poetry.
23. I like old jazz.
24. I’ve a thing for mature women.
25. I like to cook for myself and improvise after 2:00am.
26. I read a lot.
27. I don’t like to use underwear.
28. I’m the guardian of a welsh corgi pembroke and a mut.
29. I Spent a lot of time just listening.
30. Someone up there must love me a lot.
31. I love the sea.
32. I almost got drown trying to save a man from drowning.
33. I often dream of being weightless in my own room.
34. I’m addicted to sex, reading and fried plantains.
35. I practiced my first surgery on myself when I was a kid reading a Dad’s notebook on the subject.
36. I love Cavafy’s poetry
37. It takes time for me to react emotionally, sometimes I do many years after the actual event.
38. One way I deal with my agoraphobia was to imagen people to be cattle, but then I found it to be very offensive to cattle, now I just imagen people not to be there at all.
39. Rainy days, cloud skies. Love them.
40. I dislike sunny days.
41. I want to figure out the reason Buddha smiles. I bet it’s an inside joke.
42. I enjoy watching people being people.
43. I avoid negative people.
Built a roadmap..
Of things I want to learn on every field I’m interested on, usually I consume every reading material at hand, at least with the roadmap I can see how every new reading contributes to the final goal.
Starting with...
1. Мастер и Маргарита (Russian)
2. L’écume des jours (French)
3. De bello gallico (Latin)
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5.
6.
7.
8.
9.
10.
Today...
1. Clouded skies. It seems rainy season finally decided to show up, two months behind schedule. Yesterday I woke up at the sound of rain on the parking lot’s tin roof, soothing music to my ears.
2. D’s impromptu visit. Traveling from Mexico to Panama just to say hello, guess I cannot beat that.
3. Losing my cellphone. Feeling the same peace I found when I got rid of my wristwatch decades ago. But now everyone is like crazy because they can get to me. I even was amonested by my boss because he couldn’t find me on saturday, which is plain ridiculous since is my personal cellphone and I don’t work on saturdays.
4. Doing it. Finally feeling my vegetative spell is going away, on friday I actually went to the gym, programmed a lot and finished two more books.
5. My go frugal goal. I need more space, my room feels crowded with all that computers and monitors, plus the dogs that now live “permanentley” inside my room since is the cooler one. I may get rid of the bed and install one of those sofas that you can make a bed so I can actually have an office to do work.
Thursday, April 24, 2008
Jan - April Update
Been lagging, trough started the year very well and pursuing this goal the other day I just felt something was holding me back, I’ve all the tools, all the resources and I’m afraid of, as my art teacher said, of my empty canvas.
Finances:
Improved:
*Got rid of my credit cards.
*My emergency fund reached six months worth.
*Got two extra sources of pasive income.
*Opened another Savings account for known future expenses.
To improve:
*Give following to new client prospects.
*Dedicate more time to freelancing.
*Find a suitable mechanism to keep my finance and personal documents handy.
*Go Frugal for real.
Education.
Improved:
*Readed a lot of technical books.
To Improve:
*Research available paths and plan for next year, this year I’m going into savings mode.
Personal.
Improved:
None
To Improve:
*Decide if I’m going to keep this long distance open relationship and work on maintain it or end it and go single again. The insecurity is just keeping me in an emotional void which is good for my sexual life but bad for my inner being, sometimes you just need a heartfelt hug.
*Put a moratorium to all my physical, emotional and intellectual addictions.
*Focus on improving my health, body and mind.
*Meditate more often, there’s too much noise going around because of unfinished things.
*Travel more within my country.
Career:
Improved:
*Finished reading all the books on the subjects I want to acquire expertise.
*Started to build things.
To Improve:
*Make proof of concepts in order to have a portfolio of expertises.
*Network more.
*Update my CV.
Activism:
Improved:
None
To Improve:
*Look for responsabilities within the party.
*Work on my volunteer site
*Volunteer more in my country
Thursday, March 27, 2008
Sub-tasks
-Get a backup ASAP of my online photoblog
-Geotag all the pictures
-Order a photoalbum of my favourites to give to my family and friends
Status
It could be worse hehehe, mom has been visiting me every other weekend since she retired and you just can’t say no to a mother’s homemade cooking.
Target Chest: 45 Current: 41
Target Waist: 31.8 Current: 40
Target Hip: 38 Current: 38
Target Bicep: 16 Current: 14
Target Tight: 24 Current: 23
Target Calf: 15 Current: 15
My town
Well, decided, I’ll write an article about the history of my town, San José de David, capital city of Chiriqui province all the way since being just an indian village when the spaniards arrived. Did a piece when I was at high school and I just found it the other day while decluttering my room.
Trip to Mexico
Well, D spoiled the surprise, now mom is very excited. I wanted to go to D.F. but it’s too far away from Cancún to do a day trip.
Small steps
In order to complete the 2008 my best year yet goal I created a roadmap of things that must happen in order to mark that task completed. Decluttering my life is one of them, both the inside and the outside. My partner visited me past weekend, even when I tried to talk about my doubts that our “Long distance” relationship would work in the long term I discovered that much of the fear is coming from things I’d to sort out by myself. That’s in the internal, in the external I cancelled two credit cards, saving in order to cancel the last one, bought a more powerful laptop, cleaned my desk in order to have a place I would love to work on. I really hope to keep up, sometimes I just get sort of lazy, I’d my business registered but have no clue about what’s next, need to read some books on this and maybe get an accountant to help me on, I’d an idea of what marketing approach to use but my brother is more busy with his own company he has not much time to discuss strategies with me, well, let’s see.
My 5 things..
-Got my WelcomePanama.com domain back and recovered all my pictures!
-A friend gave me a ride to work today
-Finally got my webcam at home working, now I can see what Gretl and Alia are up to when I’m not home.
-Discovering in this trip that the bond with my partner remains stronger despite the distance that separate us.
-Finished configuring my new laptop and (you won’t believe it!) my desk!
Saturday, March 22, 2008
Monday, March 17, 2008
Bliss!!
I cancelled my second credit card! I’ll put the pieces on a frame over my desk as a warning.
One more to go, USD 1,200.
The problem of doing this at home is...
That if I prepare pasta for two days I eventually ate the whole pasta the same day before going to bed :-P
Well, I went shopping yesterday buying all that spicy stuff that make small dishes taste good.
Thursday, March 06, 2008
Now this is creepy...I should create a task on "43 weird things that happened to me"
It seems I’m not the only one, this is exactly like the stuff I’d been going trough past week.
Now this is creepy...I should create a task on "43 weird things that happened to me"
It seems I’m not the only one, this is exactly like the stuff I’d been going trough past week.
Wondering what all that was about...
Been sort of introspective wondering where this sudden veil of darkness is coming from, for almost a week I’d a recurrent dream where I’m myself in the middle of a land almost black, where the only light seems to be a eerie gloom at the distance that allows me to see from time to time what looks like human forms black as coal moving between weird constructs or ruins of some sort, I approach them but I only can see black silouethes against the less darker background, they won’t answer my questions on how to reach the source of the light, some reach for me from odd angles and some touch me as if they were blind, when I try to touch them they would go away, I’m curious about it, not only because it has changed the usual pattern of my dreams but because there’s a lot of physical distress, I wake up tired and all hurt as if I were actually trekking a real place. Even tough I’m aware I’m inside a dream world the usual means to wake myself up when I’m within and things start to get nasty won’t work, but weirdly, I don’t mind, I don’t even try to wake up anymore, despite the sinister environment, I don’t feel threatened by the dark forms but as if they were mere being curious about why I’m there among them.
The house felt heavy those days, so much I went to sleep at E’s on monday, who was quite happy to have me around, the dream didn’t came to me that night, and I felt light and unusually happy and full of light, When I returned home, that night, the heaviness had gone, I found my hamsa broken on my desk, I remember what A told me about that when he gave it to me, sort of creepy. I’ll take it to a jeweler to see if it can be fixed.
Wednesday, March 05, 2008
Got a good book on Yoga for Men
Would start practicing this week.
non-violence
Osho wrote that Non-violence is not a principle to follow, but a consequence of mindfulness, if one is mindful one cannot be violent, thus, aggresive persons would mine our spirit if our convictions are not coming from our heart but from our mind, imposed by ourselves as a path we “want” to follow, a quite static path is that,and we forgot life is not a fixed path, but one that’s constantly changing, and when we find those bad apples on the humanity basket we do ourselves an them a favour by just flowing around them and going on.
Today
-My partner’s way of waking me up today
-The great breakfast that followed
-Realize I was on the verge of being prejudiced because of my neighbour complaint about myself having so many guests arriving at my house instead of putting myself in his place first.
Sunday, February 24, 2008
Channels...
I’d use email, phone calls (using Movistar extra minutes), snail mail postcards and Facebook!
After a lot of thinking..
Every one of the people I love, that would be more than 100 smiles :-)
Saturday, February 23, 2008
Following advice from a previous post...
1. Increase income
-My boss approved trimestral bonuses (Ubercool)
-Got my boss to approve travel allowance (Ubercool)
-Invest in a new laptop to be able to handle more complicated work from RAC
-Advertise Hegemon more agressively
2. Reduce expenses
-Convince my boss to charge my travel expenses to the client.
-Be utterly spartan with my Light, Gas, Water, transport,Guiness, Vodka, night outs and bed partners.
-Increase the amount of days between the cleaning lady visits.
-Consolidate my credit cards (In process, ubercool)
4. Create multiple streams of income
-Renting my other room (Done)
-Creating a portfolio of clients
Great exercise to steal a smile ...
You tend to forget what you really enjoyed back then as you grow up, hahaha. Memories…
Entry #1 Childhood Memories
A closeup photo of me having Jell-o takeng by my father I don’t remember him taking.
My black cat that everyday at sunset would stay at the kitchen door watching, It’s my favourite motif
Freeing paper boats in the streams after a heavy rain
My first origami crane
My first rendition of the Venus de Milo
Being alone in the hills beyond the swamp
El
Mom surprising me taking me to see Legend
E.T.
My first succesful chemical garden
Jumping out of a waterfall (looked to me so high back then)
My first kiss
My second kiss
Everytime my dog had puppies
Azzel
Benji
Barky
My first poem
Jerry
Learning english to be able to communicate with Jerry
My first snowball
El’s farewell gift
My 7th birthday
First thing I bought with earned money, a book.
Sliding down the Comission building hill
Eating wild berries every summer
The cool waters of the Piedra river in Alanje
Fishing with Dad
Holy week at Alanje
My neverending amount of cousins
Reading
Another manic friday...
On this goal:
Option A:
Make a traditional one
Found this video of Alice in Wonderland popup book is awesome
Option B:
Make a Digital one
Flash (Already know how to do the flip page effect)
For the 3D popup been thinking of some of the 3D libraries I’d found, still in their infancy but enough for what I want.
There’s actually a working algorithm to turn 2D pictures in 3D popup alikes Get to read the papers or try to reverse engineering it
Ideal would be pipe 2D image -> 3D popup geometry -> Render in Flash 3D apis -> Popup in effect -> Pop out Effect -> Flip Effect
So anyone would be able to build animated “books” feeding the pages images to the flash.
Hints:
“Mechanical books should look like ordinary books. Their success is to be measured by the ingenuity with which their bookish format conceals unbookish characteristics.”
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
Well..
It was a great experience but heavy, I got back home tired. Our nomina was one of the most voted, for some weird process had to make some deals with other groups so only 5 were choosen from ours, the elder ones. Well, it was overall a good experience, but not the sort of activism I was expecting, guess it would be more interesting as the major elections approaches.
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
Friends and Facebook
In less than two days I was back in touch with my friends from high school, it’s amazing to learn how their lives have blossomed, some have kids, a lot moved overseas, despite the age upon our shoulders as I write them and read their posts I couldn’t stop thinking of them as if I just hadn’t seen them since yesterday, even chuckling at the last joke we shared before we take our own separate ways.
Stars
I went late to my apartment complex gym, once there, tought of going for a swim. The water was way cold, I swam for 5 minutes and then just allowed the water to support my weight, tired and warm, the water no longer feeling cold, I got on my back and watched the night sky, just over my point of view was standing the Orion constellation, a man suspended in heaven and myself suspended in water, the weightlessness and the whole sky covering almost my entire field of view made me feel for an instant I was actually in space, I felt vertigo and lose my buoyancy after resurfacing got off the water with a big laugh and coughing.
A friend asked in his facebook page how many stars are in the sky, I was going to answer him 10 Teras, but then, a more obvious answer come to my mind: enough to makes us wonder. Not too few to not be interested on them, not too many to scare us.
Status
Target Chest: 45 Current: 41
Target Waist: 31.8 Current: 35
Target Hip: 38 Current: 38
Target Bicep: 16 Current: 14
Target Tight: 24 Current: 23
Target Calf: 15 Current: 15
Monday, January 14, 2008
Pangea Day
A submission for Pangea’s day in May would be cool.
Saturday, January 12, 2008
My 43 random things...
1.I go to sleep at 3:00am and wake up at 6:00am but won’t leave bed until 7:00am.
2.I love to be underwater.
3.Guiness is my favourite brand of beer.
4.I’d been heartbroken twice.
5.I’d been in love twice.
6.I love watching people being people.
7.My favourite place to read is not a cafe, is a bar.
8.My first dog was a German Shepherd called Barky
9.My second dog was a Pekinnesse called Benji.
10.When Benji died was the first time I saw mom crying, I was a kid, I had never seen her crying before.
11.The second time I saw my mom crying was when I asked who my father was. I never asked the question again.
12.I lost my faith in God the same night I got my first broken heart, unrelated reasons. I was 25.
13.I’d rather be alone. I’m sort of an empathic person, crowds can overwhelm me.
14. I love walking in the rain.
15. I have an espresso and a chocolate bar for breakfast.
16. I love pasta.
17. When I watch people I try to predict what they’ll do and what they’ll say, it’s a game I’d played since I was a kid.
18. Sometimes life feels scripted.
19. I feel home among trees.
20. I enjoy painting.
21. In average my desk stays uncluttered half and hour before I turn it into a mess.
22. Poetry.
23. I like old jazz.
24. I’ve a thing for mature women.
25. I like to cook for myself and improvise after 2:00am.
26. I read a lot.
27. I don’t like to use underwear.
28. I’m the guardian of a welsh corgi pembroke and a mut.
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30.
31.
32.
33.
34.
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36.
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38.
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40.
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42.
43.
My 43 random things...
1.I go to sleep at 3:00am and wake up at 6:00am but won’t leave bed until 7:00am.
2.I love to be underwater.
3.Guiness is my favourite brand of beer.
4.I’d been heartbroken twice.
5.I’d been in love twice.
6.I love watching people being people.
7.My favourite place to read is not a cafe, is a bar.
8.My first dog was a German Shepherd called Barky
9.My second dog was a Pekinnesse called Benji.
10.When Benji died was the first time I saw mom crying, I was a kid, I had never seen her crying before.
11.The second time I saw my mom crying was when I asked who my father was. I never asked the question again.
12.I lost my faith in God the same night I got my first broken heart, I was 25.
13.I’d rather be alone. I’m sort of an empathic person, I can get overwhelmed in a crowd.
14. I love walking in the rain.
15. I have coffe for breakfast
16. I love pasta
17. When I watch people I try to predict what they’ll do and what they’ll say, it’s a game I’d played since I was a kid.
18. Sometimes life feels scripted to me.
19. I feel safer among trees.
20. I feel free when I paint.
Entry #1 Childhood Memories
A closeup photo of me having Jell-o takeng by my father I don’t remember him taking.
Jupiter high
Third day in a row I can't sleep. I don't dare to. I need to go away for a couple of days. Sort this El affair out.
Friday, January 11, 2008
Weird dreams...
Had one of the weirdest dreams with him, I'm not sure I can even catalog it as such, I could wake up, do stuff, go back to bed, and the dream would proceed from the point I opened my eyes and got up of bed.
It started with a nun and a pauper telling me someone needed to talk to me, we went down trough a manhole in the street to a filthy tunnel and then underwater to the point I started to run out of air and lose consciousness.
(First interruption)
We got out of the water, all wet and cold and got into El's lair, I'd not been there in ages. El was talking with someone, he looked at me and winked. The nun help me change my clothes while the pauper offered me tea.
I hadn't seen El in my dreams since we had that big argument when I was 14 I think, I barely recognized him, he looked decades older than me, well, he always was the eldest, he pointed to a couch while morphing himself into a younger version.
I couldn't see who he was talking, since the guy never turned back when we arrived, what an unpolite guy I thought and I realized it was me.
(Second interruption).
We huged for a while, he started asking me how I was doing, how was mom and grandma, work, it was odd.
"are you back for real or I'm dreaming this" I asked him.
"why, do you need me? " he replied sarcastically.
I fixed his tie, he got the dimple wrong.
"I had the weird sense I wasn't alone at home when I came back tonight, something just in the treshold of my sight, what where you doing in my room?" I said.
he just smiled.
"Looking around, quite a mess, you'll never change" he sighed.
"Now, You need to wake up, I'll tell you more tonight".
Everything turned white and El's face faded, he looks so much like me.
(Third Interruption). This time the sun hitting me in the face.
I was back at the street in front of the manhole, a nun was helping a pauper out of it, they smiled as if I were a stranger they just met an continued walking, the night was rainy and cold, the dream I was having when the nun intercepted me, continued...so I stopped it and wake up.
El ...when I was a kid was my first imaginary friend, my guardian demon...well, I don't believe in guardian demons and guardian angels anymore.
Wednesday, January 09, 2008
My 5 things...
1. Thanks for 43things people, they are a beautiful bunch full of positive energy.
2. Thanks for one of the most hard years in my life in all senses and the lessons I learnt from it and that not even for a moment I’d the doubt I’ll survive it.
3. Thanks for a new year full of opportunities.
4. Thanks for family and friend.
5. Thanks for being every me.
Thanks for diversity
this week I’m hosting trough the couchsurfing website a german, an eslovenian and a spaniard, three different people but very much alike, the greatest thing is being able to watch them interact, to share their findings, their dreams, their goals, the world is so big and at the same time so small, I try to ask minutiae about their home towns, the people there, then look in google earth and try to imagine how would have been growing there, it’s a personal perspective I enjoy having, if I can reach my goal that in every one of those corners of the earth there would be a human which path crossed with mine and that I was able to plant a small seed of friendship and nurturing trough the years I would be, as the little prince, to see the stars and see a well in every one of them.
Past Year questions...
1. What did I fail?
Achieving a compromise between every me
2. What am I resisting?
Choices, choices on people, on love, on profession, on familly on myself
3. What did I do well?
Work
4. What can I do better?
Persistence
5. Were you the person you want to be during the past year?
Sometimes yes, sometimes no
6. Did I get closer to achieving my short, medium, and long-term goals?
Short: Achieved
Medium: Somewhere mid february the events I put in motion past year would reach it intended conclusion.
Long term: I’m still aiming for the godhead.
7. What am I grateful for?
One of the most challenging years I’d had, friends, 43things friends that gave me their support, learning to live simple and finding love.
Tuesday, January 08, 2008
Some days...
I wish I would have vacations of my dogs, but then I realize, the culprit is myself and taking them away is not the solution, is the easy way out. When you have kids you can’t send them out, when you commit to a wife, you can’t send her out, but people do, because there’s always an easy way at the first hints of trouble, well, I’ll walk with this small pebble in my shoes all the way, either my foot would learn to ignore it or the pebble would crust to nothing under my constant trailing. If I can’t with two beautiful dogs that only want to please me, how in heaven I’ll be able to deal with a family that would have their own demands.
Got the vision...
Now I need the tools. I’ll check on the architecture courses in the local university.
The fridge...
It was a good place to start, anyways I hope to get a canvas big enough and make some artsy variation.
I’m grouping my images around:
-Family
-Friends
-Volunteering
-Academics
-Politics
-Arts
-Travel
-Research
-Love
-Filthy money
Running for Delegate
Well, I signed up in the PRD a couple of years ago to help a friend that was running for the legislature, now got into a run for delegate, the dynamics of the group are quite interesting, there’s new people and very old people from the time of Torrijos. The meetings sometimes are quite odd but I’m learning a lot.
My 100 things..
1. My partner
2. My mom
3. My grandma
4. My Aunt Mima
5. My Aunt Maye
6. My cousins all of them
7. My nephew
8. My sisters
9. Dad
10. My dogs
11. Sinuq and Yakone giving Alia the paw of death
Running out of clay...
Completed the design. I’d start modeling it in clay, been unable to follow up because of work.
Ok, I "re-started" this goal today
There should be a way to do crunches fun…mmm…hehehe..hahahha.
MMMM....
Carlos says maybe in february I can go with him….
Well, I guess I can wait a month
Practicing my german with Michael
Michael has an excellent book of latin phrases in german.
All the nasty ones are there hahahaha.
My 43 random things...
1.I go to sleep at 3:00am and wake up at 6:00am but won’t leave bed until 7:00am.
2.I love to be underwater.
3.Guiness is my favourite brand of beer.
4.I’d been heartbroken twice.
5.I’d been in love twice.
6.I love watching people being people.
7.My favourite place to read is not a cafe, is a bar.
8.My first dog was a German Shepherd called Barky
9.My second dog was a Pekinnesse called Benji.
10.When Benji died was the first time I saw mom crying, I was a kid, I had never seen her crying before.
11.The second time I saw my mom crying was when I asked who my father was. I never asked the question again.
12.I lost my faith in God the same night I got my first broken heart, I was 25.
Sunday, December 16, 2007
Outcomes...
It was great to have D visiting, also spending some quality time with my friends this weekend, just talking about nothing in particular, childhood memories, love, work.
My vacations this week were cancelled, that really got me, but then, it was the most likely outcome, however It's ok, all this weeks scheduled tasks were completed on sunday so I won't have to worry about that. However, it puts me in a crashing course with january's, I won't be able to do it, guess I'll had to redraw and write off it.
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
Today's small achievements...
Finished the Prep report. Learnt how the tables related to each other, it took me 5 minutes, David Allen was right on that, the fear of not having all that is required is what keeps you from starting.
*Finished my digital homing pigeon’s proof of concept, “CherAmi”. The idea (Wich I got at 5:00 am this morning as an excuse to skip the gym) was to send a direct message to cherami’s twitter and it would relay it to me via sms (other people had done it but my cell company doesn’t have a web gateway). Learnt to manipulate xml using *arghhh vbscript, Java for the server interface and curl for the twitter api.
Sunday, November 11, 2007
Hopefully My 7 Answers for next weekend:
1. What did I fail?
Nothing. I acomplished everything I wanted to.
2. What am I resisting?
Nothing.
3. What did I do well?
Stuck to my schedule. Finished everything I wanted to finish this week. Made progress towards next week’s goals. Overdeliver. Completed all the contracts I made with myself.
4. What can I do better?
Repeat this success more often…
5. Were you the person you want to be during the past week?
Yes.
6. Did I get closer to achieving my short, medium, and long-term goals?
Short: My Thesis. I delivered the text and completed a demo.
Medium: I got an agreement with my boss about the payment of my allowances and with that info scheduled payments on my credit cards, sent a complaint letter to my ISP about the situation with my account.
Long term: Back in my two feets, only one credit card, looking for a new 8-6 job, starting another career, being sucessful with my freelance work, travel trough Central America for a month doing volunteer work.
7. What am I grateful for?
Making my dreams real, at least the ones I know I can.