Tuesday, January 22, 2008

Well..

It was a great experience but heavy, I got back home tired. Our nomina was one of the most voted, for some weird process had to make some deals with other groups so only 5 were choosen from ours, the elder ones. Well, it was overall a good experience, but not the sort of activism I was expecting, guess it would be more interesting as the major elections approaches.

Tuesday, January 15, 2008

Friends and Facebook

In less than two days I was back in touch with my friends from high school, it’s amazing to learn how their lives have blossomed, some have kids, a lot moved overseas, despite the age upon our shoulders as I write them and read their posts I couldn’t stop thinking of them as if I just hadn’t seen them since yesterday, even chuckling at the last joke we shared before we take our own separate ways.

Stars

I went late to my apartment complex gym, once there, tought of going for a swim. The water was way cold, I swam for 5 minutes and then just allowed the water to support my weight, tired and warm, the water no longer feeling cold, I got on my back and watched the night sky, just over my point of view was standing the Orion constellation, a man suspended in heaven and myself suspended in water, the weightlessness and the whole sky covering almost my entire field of view made me feel for an instant I was actually in space, I felt vertigo and lose my buoyancy after resurfacing got off the water with a big laugh and coughing.

A friend asked in his facebook page how many stars are in the sky, I was going to answer him 10 Teras, but then, a more obvious answer come to my mind: enough to makes us wonder. Not too few to not be interested on them, not too many to scare us.

Status

Target Chest: 45 Current: 41
Target Waist: 31.8 Current: 35
Target Hip: 38 Current: 38
Target Bicep: 16 Current: 14
Target Tight: 24 Current: 23
Target Calf: 15 Current: 15

Monday, January 14, 2008

Pangea Day

A submission for Pangea’s day in May would be cool.

Saturday, January 12, 2008

My 43 random things...

1.I go to sleep at 3:00am and wake up at 6:00am but won’t leave bed until 7:00am.
2.I love to be underwater.
3.Guiness is my favourite brand of beer.
4.I’d been heartbroken twice.
5.I’d been in love twice.
6.I love watching people being people.
7.My favourite place to read is not a cafe, is a bar.
8.My first dog was a German Shepherd called Barky
9.My second dog was a Pekinnesse called Benji.
10.When Benji died was the first time I saw mom crying, I was a kid, I had never seen her crying before.
11.The second time I saw my mom crying was when I asked who my father was. I never asked the question again.
12.I lost my faith in God the same night I got my first broken heart, unrelated reasons. I was 25.
13.I’d rather be alone. I’m sort of an empathic person, crowds can overwhelm me.
14. I love walking in the rain.
15. I have an espresso and a chocolate bar for breakfast.
16. I love pasta.
17. When I watch people I try to predict what they’ll do and what they’ll say, it’s a game I’d played since I was a kid.
18. Sometimes life feels scripted.
19. I feel home among trees.
20. I enjoy painting.
21. In average my desk stays uncluttered half and hour before I turn it into a mess.
22. Poetry.
23. I like old jazz.
24. I’ve a thing for mature women.
25. I like to cook for myself and improvise after 2:00am.
26. I read a lot.
27. I don’t like to use underwear.
28. I’m the guardian of a welsh corgi pembroke and a mut.
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My 43 random things...

1.I go to sleep at 3:00am and wake up at 6:00am but won’t leave bed until 7:00am.
2.I love to be underwater.
3.Guiness is my favourite brand of beer.
4.I’d been heartbroken twice.
5.I’d been in love twice.
6.I love watching people being people.
7.My favourite place to read is not a cafe, is a bar.
8.My first dog was a German Shepherd called Barky
9.My second dog was a Pekinnesse called Benji.
10.When Benji died was the first time I saw mom crying, I was a kid, I had never seen her crying before.
11.The second time I saw my mom crying was when I asked who my father was. I never asked the question again.
12.I lost my faith in God the same night I got my first broken heart, I was 25.
13.I’d rather be alone. I’m sort of an empathic person, I can get overwhelmed in a crowd.
14. I love walking in the rain.
15. I have coffe for breakfast
16. I love pasta
17. When I watch people I try to predict what they’ll do and what they’ll say, it’s a game I’d played since I was a kid.
18. Sometimes life feels scripted to me.
19. I feel safer among trees.
20. I feel free when I paint.

Entry #1 Childhood Memories

A closeup photo of me having Jell-o takeng by my father I don’t remember him taking.

Jupiter high

Third day in a row I can't sleep. I don't dare to. I need to go away for a couple of days. Sort this El affair out.

Friday, January 11, 2008

Weird dreams...


Had one of the weirdest dreams with him, I'm not sure I can even catalog it as such, I could wake up, do stuff, go back to bed, and the dream would proceed from the point I opened my eyes and got up of bed.

It was more as if the dream was a play rehearsal, and the characters would politely await for me to return my attention to them.

It started with a nun and a pauper telling me someone needed to talk to me, we went down trough a manhole in the street to a filthy tunnel and then underwater to the point I started to run out of air and lose consciousness.

(First interruption)

We got out of the water, all wet and cold and got into El's lair, I'd not been there in ages. El was talking with someone, he looked at me and winked. The nun help me change my clothes while the pauper offered me tea.

I hadn't seen El in my dreams since we had that big argument when I was 14 I think, I barely recognized him, he looked decades older than me, well, he always was the eldest, he pointed to a couch while morphing himself into a younger version.

I couldn't see who he was talking, since the guy never turned back when we arrived, what an unpolite guy I thought and I realized it was me.

(Second interruption).

We huged for a while, he started asking me how I was doing, how was mom and grandma, work, it was odd.

"are you back for real or I'm dreaming this" I asked him.
"why, do you need me? " he replied sarcastically.

I fixed his tie, he got the dimple wrong.

"I had the weird sense I wasn't alone at home when I came back tonight, something just in the treshold of my sight, what where you doing in my room?" I said.

he just smiled.

"Looking around, quite a mess, you'll never change" he sighed.
"Now, You need to wake up, I'll tell you more tonight".

Everything turned white and El's face faded, he looks so much like me.

(Third Interruption). This time the sun hitting me in the face.

I was back at the street in front of the manhole, a nun was helping a pauper out of it, they smiled as if I were a stranger they just met an continued walking, the night was rainy and cold, the dream I was having when the nun intercepted me, continued...so I stopped it and wake up.

El ...when I was a kid was my first imaginary friend, my guardian demon...well, I don't believe in guardian demons and guardian angels anymore.

Wednesday, January 09, 2008

Sites I want to create applications for:

My 5 things...

1. Thanks for 43things people, they are a beautiful bunch full of positive energy.
2. Thanks for one of the most hard years in my life in all senses and the lessons I learnt from it and that not even for a moment I’d the doubt I’ll survive it.
3. Thanks for a new year full of opportunities.
4. Thanks for family and friend.
5. Thanks for being every me.

Thanks for diversity

this week I’m hosting trough the couchsurfing website a german, an eslovenian and a spaniard, three different people but very much alike, the greatest thing is being able to watch them interact, to share their findings, their dreams, their goals, the world is so big and at the same time so small, I try to ask minutiae about their home towns, the people there, then look in google earth and try to imagine how would have been growing there, it’s a personal perspective I enjoy having, if I can reach my goal that in every one of those corners of the earth there would be a human which path crossed with mine and that I was able to plant a small seed of friendship and nurturing trough the years I would be, as the little prince, to see the stars and see a well in every one of them.

Past Year questions...

1. What did I fail?
Achieving a compromise between every me

2. What am I resisting?
Choices, choices on people, on love, on profession, on familly on myself

3. What did I do well?
Work

4. What can I do better?
Persistence

5. Were you the person you want to be during the past year?
Sometimes yes, sometimes no

6. Did I get closer to achieving my short, medium, and long-term goals?
Short: Achieved
Medium: Somewhere mid february the events I put in motion past year would reach it intended conclusion.
Long term: I’m still aiming for the godhead.

7. What am I grateful for?
One of the most challenging years I’d had, friends, 43things friends that gave me their support, learning to live simple and finding love.

Tuesday, January 08, 2008

Some days...

I wish I would have vacations of my dogs, but then I realize, the culprit is myself and taking them away is not the solution, is the easy way out. When you have kids you can’t send them out, when you commit to a wife, you can’t send her out, but people do, because there’s always an easy way at the first hints of trouble, well, I’ll walk with this small pebble in my shoes all the way, either my foot would learn to ignore it or the pebble would crust to nothing under my constant trailing. If I can’t with two beautiful dogs that only want to please me, how in heaven I’ll be able to deal with a family that would have their own demands.

Got the vision...

Now I need the tools. I’ll check on the architecture courses in the local university.

190

:(

The fridge...

It was a good place to start, anyways I hope to get a canvas big enough and make some artsy variation.

I’m grouping my images around:

-Family
-Friends
-Volunteering
-Academics
-Politics
-Arts
-Travel
-Research
-Love
-Filthy money

Running for Delegate

Well, I signed up in the PRD a couple of years ago to help a friend that was running for the legislature, now got into a run for delegate, the dynamics of the group are quite interesting, there’s new people and very old people from the time of Torrijos. The meetings sometimes are quite odd but I’m learning a lot.

My 100 things..

1. My partner
2. My mom
3. My grandma
4. My Aunt Mima
5. My Aunt Maye
6. My cousins all of them
7. My nephew
8. My sisters
9. Dad
10. My dogs
11. Sinuq and Yakone giving Alia the paw of death

Running out of clay...

Completed the design. I’d start modeling it in clay, been unable to follow up because of work.

Ok, I "re-started" this goal today

There should be a way to do crunches fun…mmm…hehehe..hahahha.

MMMM....

Carlos says maybe in february I can go with him….

Well, I guess I can wait a month

Practicing my german with Michael

Michael has an excellent book of latin phrases in german.

All the nasty ones are there hahahaha.

My 43 random things...

1.I go to sleep at 3:00am and wake up at 6:00am but won’t leave bed until 7:00am.
2.I love to be underwater.
3.Guiness is my favourite brand of beer.
4.I’d been heartbroken twice.
5.I’d been in love twice.
6.I love watching people being people.
7.My favourite place to read is not a cafe, is a bar.
8.My first dog was a German Shepherd called Barky
9.My second dog was a Pekinnesse called Benji.
10.When Benji died was the first time I saw mom crying, I was a kid, I had never seen her crying before.
11.The second time I saw my mom crying was when I asked who my father was. I never asked the question again.
12.I lost my faith in God the same night I got my first broken heart, I was 25.